But the last year has been rough. I will not detail it now. But things have been hard on both of us. Then something happened. Something unprecedented. Something unexpected and so painful.
It's been a month since the onset of the issue. Nothing has changed. My heart is broken into pieces for her and because of her. And on top of that, I have no one to tell these things to. I always told her.
Certain things drive the nails in all the more. Many things do. Facebook is one. Her status drives me nuts! I think I'm going to scream and throw my computer across the wall every time I see something on there about the boy.
My friends from high school are dear to me too, this must be understood. I will explain that in as much detail as I can later. But I love them with everything I have. They mean so much to me, despite the fact that we are infinitely different. I would give my life for them. But they have issues and bring frustrations too. I've always been able to talk to my friend (let's call her Ursula) about these other friends. Always. We knew who each others' friends are but were removed from the situation. With this boy, everything is different. Now she sees my friends more than I do, knows their drama and big moments in their lives, and facebooks them. Everytime I look on facebook, she's been talking to one of them. They know what's going on with her before I do, too.
I can't stand it! I'm going to go insane if I see it go on any longer! Ursula and I have always had separate spheres that we only came into when invited by the other. She was certainly not invited into my life this way and is not welcome. Especially since she deliberately lied to me and hid it behind my back.
